Because I’m spamming the internet with this picture today, I figured I’d share it here too (I apologize if you’ve already seen this on my LJ/Facebook/etc….).  I had no idea my bump had grown so much!

I most definitely have a bump now…or, am severely bloated. Or perhaps both. Ah, the joys of pregnancy.


Edit: So, I’ve just figured out how crazy this spring/summer is going to be! It’s like a love fest in here! Lemme break it down:

April: My baby and my sister comes to visit (though my sister is convinced I’m having the baby in March)

May: Pixie’s wedding and Jess’ baby

June: My birthday, my wedding anniversary and my SIL’s baby

Holy crap! It’s going to be busy busy busy! And those are just the ones I know about!

Daily Life, Pregnancy

Tuesday Update

A peek at the past week (how I’ve been): Since last post, it’s still been up and down. I took a day off last wednesday to calm my nerves, but I ended up with my expensive iphone falling in a sink full of water followed by some more estate drama.  Luckily the weekend brought some much needed relief. I spent time with S and her kids, my in-laws. I cooked. I rested. It was lovely. This week has been intense.

How far along am I? Depending on who you ask, but I’m going with 16 weeks, as of yesterday.

I am thinking… a lot. Dreaming and plotting for baby, considering our options, what we need, what we want, etc… Thinking about family and loss, and how life will be without our parents to help us. Plotting the nursery, for sure!

I am thankful for… the freedom that my job gives me to have MANY snacks throughout the day. It saves me. Also? My circle of family and friends. I feel so supported and loved.

From the kitchen… Some plans this week to cook more than usual. On the menu? Yesterday was brocolli and cheese stuffed chicken, I’m going to try for shepards pie tonight. I also have plans for crock-pot lasagna.

I am wearing…Maternity clothes! I definitely shopped the sales racks at Thyme to find some pants for work and play. I had been lucky thus far that I had my SIL’s mat clothes, but now that SHE’S ALSO PREGGO EEEEEEEEEEEE she needed her clothes back. So, I picked up a pair of jeans and some work pants.

I am creating… A toque for the hubby, and not much else. Been thinking about getting back to my art journal that I started forever ago. Plotting baby projects (another post to come)

I am going… to have a contractor in this week to give us an estimate on work that needs to be done at the house.

I am reading… The Wise Man’s Fear by Patrick Rothfuss (SO GOOD) and The Thinking Woman’s Guide to a Better Birth by Henci Goer

I am hoping… that our renos will be started soon so that we can start prepping for baby!

I am hearing… The new Tori album, and lots of Neko Case.

Around the house…Purging is the name of the game. We’re donating some clothes this week.

One of my favorite things…The apples we got from the orchard in Mountain. We’re still working through them and they are all SUPER delicious. Yay for local produce!

A few plans for the rest of the week: Working on the house.
Weight Gain: About a week ago, I would have said 6lbs, but then I lost some weight so last I checked, it was 2lbs.
Baby in the Produce World: This week the wee one is an avacado.
Movement/Signs o’ Baby: Nothing yet, but I’m looking forward to it starting :)
Cravings and Aversions: Cravings: Chocolate milk. Aversions: Pork chops
Body Changes/Weirdness: My boobs have gone through several major changes. Also, varicose veins ahoy! Otherwise, not much. No stretch marks, belly button is still an innie and I can still wear my wedding rings.
Other Random Babeh/Pregnancy thoughts: Naming your future child is HARD.  Also, this is so heartbreaking and yet beautiful. I just can’t relate to thinking that way about a child.
Crafting, Daily Life, Paganism

A rambling fall post

It’s been one of those weeks that just wears you right down to the ground. There’s been family drama, estate drama, the death of my year old iPhone, work troubles, hormones, nightmares, illness, serious money troubles, you name it. October has been hard on us. Today S and her wee ones popped by for a visit and some running around. I swear, there’s nothing like having your nearest and dearest around when you’re going through hell. I also heard that L is coming to town next week for work, so I’m going to be even more spoiled with some bestie time.

You can feel autumn in the air, the chill, and the smell of the leaves. I usually love this season, but it’s always a hard time of reviewing what you have around you and the drawing end of the year. I’ve been thinking a lot about Samhain and what we’re going to do this year. I haven’t really been practicing much. Honestly, since losing my mother, I’ve been afraid to get back in touch with my faith. It’s like that saying “Once bitten, twice shy”. I’ve been so afraid of getting in touch with that part of myself. I’m thinking I’m going to make either Red Moon’s Honey and Lavender cake or some kind of spice cake. I’m thinking about doing some kind of ritual for the dead. I don’t know. Being pregnant, I’m not in the mood to go out partying like in past years. Maybe we’ll just stay home and watch scary movies. I’ve been dreaming of my parents almost every night this month.

On a cheerier note, my workplace has decided that we should dress up for Halloween. Being preggo makes that difficult for me, until I saw this:

Yes. It has been purchased and shipped. I picked up a black shirt from Old Navy today while out with S. You can be a fashionable preggo this Halloween too! Here’s the shop where I found it.

The cold is helping to revive my creative spirit though, which is nice. I’m plotting some knitting projects (finish the hat for Pat, start on a scarf for a friend and of course – BABY STUFF). I’ve been thinking about getting back into journaling and maybe even drawing. Being forced inside isn’t always a bad thing I suppose. Also, I’ve been recently inspired to try my hand at a few new crafts. Firstly, here is a LOVELY wreath that Danielle made over at PHIT:

Didn't she do an amazing job? I love those colours!

Seriously, run over to her blog and tell her how amazing that is. My friend Krista of Dandelion Express made a wreath too:

Again, aren't these ladies super talented?

I just need some felt, I think, and these could be mine. I even have a foam wreath frame thingie from when I was thinking about making a mobile for a co-workers baby. (PS, don’t try making a hand knit mobile for a co-workers baby 2 weeks before the baby is due. You will never finish.) The mobile in question:

How cute, right?

I have the worm dragonfly body done. Yeah. That’s it. Here’s the Rav pattern page.

BUT! Despite that failure, I am considering attempting some felt mobile ideas for Babeh. I came across from obscenely cute ones on etsy:

Adorable! So colourful and happy! All for the low low price of…65?! Yeaaaaah, no. It gets worse too. We’re thinking about doing a woodland themed nursery (by we, I mean me. Heh.) She has a woodland themed mobile:


It’s 75$. Yes. 75$. So, I’m thinking of spending maybe 20$ on felt and supplies and going from there. I think I can do it :D  Here’s the etsy store if you are interested.

Anyway, I’m off to listen to some more Neko Case and maybe even enjoy a book. Have a great weekend everyone <3

Daily Life

Tuesday Day Book and Preggo Update

I’ve been so exhausted lately, I have a hard time putting together a real post, so in the mean time, I think I’m going to continue with my Tuesday Day Book and maybe move them to Fridays add  Preggo posting. I’ll put mine together today to give you a bit of a catch up on the preggo before diving into week 15 at the end of this week.

A peek at the past week (how I’ve been): Exhausted and emotional. I have been all over the emotional roller-coaster. Unfortunately, I’m also fighting some nausea again (that’s what I get for speaking too soon about it being gone). I’ve also been pretty stressed out over estate/family/other stuff, which isn’t helping. Overall though, the pregnancy has been good. I wasn’t severely sick at any point, and my family/friends have been really understanding about my lack of energy. Looooots of nightmares lately, which isn’t fun. Seem to be having many reoccurring dreams about my family home and my parents.

EDD: We’re telling people we’re due early/mid April.

How far along am I? At this point, I’m 15 weeks.

I am thinking… a lot. Dreaming and plotting for baby, considering our options, what we need, what we want, etc… Thinking about family and loss, and how life will be without our parents to help us. Plotting the nursery, for sure!

I am thankful for… really understanding co-workers, being invited to a woman’s full moon native group (more on that later!), finding a GP who is taking patients who happens to work with a pediatrician, having a great husband who happens to be my very best friend.

From the kitchen… Nothing interesting. We’ve been on a really tight budget, and have been trying to eat as cheaply as possible. Baked Spagetti has been feeding us this week, and I’m going to be making some kind of chicken dish in the next couple of days. Plotting freezer meals for when baby comes so that I’m not stressed about food.

I am wearing…Maternity clothes! my body has moved on to full on bump, so very little from my normal wardrobe still fits. Also, finally got myself some new bras from Bravissimo. SO MUCH COMFIER.

I am creating… A toque for the hubby, and not much else. Been thinking about getting back to my art journal that I started forever ago. Plotting baby projects (another post to come)

I am going… to a children’s museum this weekend with Sarah and her little girl. Can’t wait!

I am reading… Living with the Dead, by Kelley Armstrong, The Wise Man’s Fear by Patrick Rothfuss (SO GOOD) and The Thinking Woman’s Guide to a Better Birth by Henci Goer

I am hoping… for a break! Life has been nuts lately!

I am hearing… The new Tori album, and lots of Neko Case.

Around the house…Lots of change. We’re hoping to do some major work to the house within the next 6 months. Starting this weekend, we’re going to be doing some purging, with plans to completely re-do the basement and either turn the space down there into our new living space (office, tv, etc…)

One of my favorite things…The Walking Dead. SO GOOD. Also, the gifts for baby that we’ve already received. Whenever I had a rough day, I go through our bag of stuff and daydream.

A few plans for the rest of the week: Cleaning and then hanging out with Sarah this weekend. Otherwise, just get through the week.
Weight Gain: So far, I’ve gained about 5lbs in the first trimester. I’m now in the 2nd. Woo!
Movement/Signs o’ Baby: Nothing yet. Soon hopefully. Heartbeat has always been good at all of our appointments, so that’s good!
Cravings: Lately? Chocolate milk.
Other Random Babeh/Pregnancy thoughts: We’re hoping to have a intervention free birth. This means, ideally, we don’t want any medical inductions, no pain medication as a little interference from the medical world as possible. That said, I am open to all of these things if emergency dictates.
Daily Life, Recipe

A beautiful long weekend

I’ve been looking forward to this weekend for a while now. With my reduced hours at work (which continue into december), I have an extra long long weekend. This past week of my pregnancy has been interesting. I’ve been on edge, but hopeful. Nausea is back, but so is my desire to eat things that aren’t bread/potato/pasta related, which is a massive relief. I’m actually getting sick of carbs. i want some veggies! Some meat! Some variety! Unfortunately, with this week comes intense headaches and nightmares.

This weekend we have a lot of good stuff going on. Friday was my cleaning, relaxing and prep day. Pat and I had date plans! (Oooo! We haven’t been on a date in a long damn time. Saw the new Jason Stratham movie. Surprisingly good) Saturday, we we’re off to the in-laws for Thanksgiving dinner. We had a lovely time! My SIL, Kina, did a fantastic job of the meal and we all had a great time hanging out.  Sunday we went going Apple Picking with Nana Jan and Cathy (and the girls from the wonderful family that I’ve adopted. Pat’s best friend, Jan, has been a huge support to me the last couple of years). Monday was basically a laze about day, mostly with video games and left overs.

One of my favourite things about thanksgiving, or any major family meal, is the dish that I made and brought to the dinner on Saturday. As you all know, it’s been a tough couple of years for my family. Pat and I try to keep traditions from both of our pasts alive as we move forward together. One of those traditions is a simple casserole dish that was present at every Sutherland family gathering for the last 10 years or so. I think it was introduced by my Dad’s daughter, Kim, at Christmas one year. Or maybe it was easter. Either way, it was a complete hit and became a staple right away. It is always a sneaky way to get non-veg lovers to get just a tiny bit on their plates (yes, it’s kind of a lie. The veg is practically bathing in cheese and cream. At least it’s still veg). It’s also one of the very few dishes that I’ve brought to mixed family events that everyone seems to enjoy (well, mostly everyone). Coming from a strange background, I have some dishes that are best left to…well…me. I’ve recently discovered that not even my little sister likes some of the Ukrainian dishes we’ve grown up with. Don’t worry Mum, I’ll keep eating those Latkes and cabbage rolls. Even if its all by my lonesome (Pat prefers his potatoes in non-pancake form, and will eat only the rice filing for the cabbage rolls. Before it comes in contact with cabbage.)

So, here’s a page from my well loved and very abused personal cook book that my Mum put together for me:

The inside cover of my recipe book <3
Mum's actual entry for this recipe <3

The Sutherland Family Veggie Casserole


  • 2 cups fresh broccoli
  • 2 cups fresh cauliflower
  • 2 eggs
  • 1/2 cup mayo
  • 1 medium onion finely chopped
  • 1 10oz can of Cream of Whatever Soup (traditionally, we use mushroom)
  • 1 cup grated cheese (usually cheddar)
  • 1/2 cup melted butter
  • 1 pkg croutons, crushed

1. Cook veggies in salted boiling water for 5 minutes. Spread evenly in 8 x 12 buttered casserole pan

Boiling broc and cauli

2. Beat eggs. Combine with mayo, onions, soup and 1/2 cup cheese

All mixed

3. Pour mix over veggies. Sprinkle remaining cheese over top

Just needs butter and crunch!

4. Pour over – melted butter. Sprinkle crushed croutons on top

5. Bake for 350 F for 40 min.

Source: Dad’s daughter Kim, and most likely from the back of a Campbell’s Soup Can. Who knows.

Make it your own! Add whatever veg you like, whatever soup/cream sauce you want, change up the cheese and go to town!

Note: My changes this time around – I used 1/2 an onion, a mix of mozz and cheddar, 1/2 fat cream of mushroom soup and I used panko crumbs instead of croutons.

As it turns out, it was a massive hit on Saturday with no leftovers for me at all. Lucky for me, I have the fixins for Part 2 at home. Veggie Casserole for dinner one night? I think so! For my fellow Canadians, I hope the long weekend treated you well! For everyone else, take care and have a great one!

Daily Life

Musical Sunday

Not sure if it’s the rainy cold weather or the pregnancy hormones, but I have been one cranky blue bitch today. I’m impatient, tired and in no mood to put up with anyone or anything. My husband has been smart and hiding in his computer games, so I’ve decided to take some time to flee upstairs and cheer myself up (or at least do something to distract myself from my unhappy belly).

What better way than to listen to some new tunes. On my radar today: The new Tori Amos album (!), the new Weepies album (note, this will launch some tunes, so be aware) and, thanks to this tumbler page (which I adore, btw), I came across The Civil Wars.

Here is a selection of those:

This Tori Album is very thematic. She definitely has more of a classical feel to it, and has welcomed her daughter to participate in vocals as a character in the story. It’s definitely an odd album, but I really like it so far.

Apparently, this song was featured in Rachel McAdam’s new flick. I love me some Weepies, thanks to my sister. It instantly transports me back to Calgary and our road trip to Banff, which was a wonderful time for Tracy and I. Loving this new album. Definitely great for the fall.

Wow, right? Love them. How did I miss them?

Meanwhile, one I haven’t mentioned yet, introduced to me by my good friend, Isaac (most likely discovered one his journey to the UK this summer), Frank Turner:

We listened to this a lot on the weekend he was down for a quick visit home (I count myself very lucky to have caught him for two visits while he was in town. He is a Rambling Man for sure.)

Enjoy :D