Weekly Preggo Update: 37 Weeks

As I mentioned in my last pregnancy update, I am going to switch to weekly updates until baby arrives. You know, assuming I can keep up. I’ll try ;)

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So tired, so sore.

A peek at the past week (how I’ve been): It was a more quiet week for us. I basically stayed home as much as possible as my body was definitely quite sore and needed rest. Thankfully, one of my best friends recently moved like 10 minutes from us and has been hosting play dates at her place, so I’ve been able to get hang out time with my girls and their kiddos without killing myself.

On Sunday, we hit the local Santa Claus parade and had a good but chilly time. It involved a lot of discomfort and walking for me, which seems to have kicked started my body prepping for labour.  The next day I lost more of my plug and have continued to do so all week. I’ve also had intense braxton hicks contractions. Eeeee.

In less good news, we found out at my weekly OB appointment that I have tested positive for Group B Strep. I freaked out a bit initially. I had these visions of a sick baby, of being stuck on my back in labour because of antibiotics, you name it. Thankfully, I have some great friends, and an amazing husband and doula, all of whom were able to calm me down.

How far along am I right now? 38 Weeks, 9 Months

I am thinking… About how quickly the last 9 months have flown by. What a strange time pregnancy is. There were moments where it felt like it dragged and I’d never get to the third trimester (especially when I was really sick those first few months), and yet, here I am now, about to have baby any time and I can’t believe it.

I am thankful for… My friends, living in suburbia (so many stores, open all the time, with so much chocolate) and my new neighbour! I have been plagued by a family that has lived right next door since we moved here almost 7 years ago. They were awful and this past week they moved out and the new neighbour moved in. She’s a single mom to a 1,5 y.o. I look forward to getting to know her :)

I am wearing… Comfy clothes. PJs, t shirts, leggings.

I am creating… Honestly, not much. I just don’t have the energy

I am going… to try and motivate myself to keep up my cleaning. Despite the preschooler and gigantic hairy dog that love to instantly destroy my efforts, I’ve enjoyed having a slightly less crazy home.

I am hoping… That we can navigate our recent money troubles a bit better. I am really really nervous about how things are going to be over the next few months. Any prayers, good mojo or happy thoughts would be appreciated.

One of my favorite things… Netflix. It is currently raising my child. My body is so incredibly sore these days that I just can’t do much with him.

Weight Gain: In total, we’re at 24lbs.

Baby is how big?: According to my Ovia App, baby is the size of a skunk.
Movement and Pregnancy Weirdness: I should go back and re-read my posts from when I was this far along last time, because I don’t remember having this much hip and pelvic pain last time. I swear, there are moments where I can’t walk, or feel like I’m going to fall apart. The pain is intense. Also, baby must have dropped because I can’t walk at all without a very pronounced waddle. This week marked the beginning of intense braxton hicks and losing my plug. This gives me hope that the end is in sight and that we should be able to have this baby before the holidays. Not that I don’t love kiddos born on the holidays, but it would really make life more difficult for us. I’d much rather have a wee babe in arms by then.
Cravings and Aversions: Chocolate, lots of chocolate. And spice. I have been enjoying hot sauce and chilis quite a bit lately.
Other Random Babeh/Pregnancy thoughts: I have reached the stage where I am sensitive to images in the media. Hurt or suffering children? Can’t watch it. Super intense violence? Nope. Give me comedy and romance please. My heart just can’t take anything else right now.
Other Pictures from this Week:
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Hanging out with my kiddo at the parade.

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Relaxing at my girlfriend’s house for a play date. 

Pregnancy Update: Month 8

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A peek at month 8: Hormones are in high gear this month. I’m very moody, restless, emotional and grumpy. Of course, because timing is awesome, the whole family caught a nasty sinus and chest mancold. So unpleasant. Many sleepless nights and exhausted days.

I started to find work was really hard on my body and Braxton Hicks started to make that known to me. The weekend of Halloween was fun but difficult for me, A long shift at work and lots of activities meant resulted in some bleeding, pressure, pain and a really unhappy worried mom. We ended up seeing the OB to make sure everything was ok and found out that I am overdoing it. Baby M is doing fine, but my body was not pleased with me. He recommended I leave work as soon as we could afford it, and so, my mat leave started a whole month early with Halloween being the last day I worked.

Timing ended up working in our favour as Pat has hopefully snagged a part time job to get us through me not qualifying for mat leave pay. Unfortunately, this means he will be working like 70 hours a week and I will be on my own with two kiddos during that time. Eep. Also, we booked Baby M’s eviction date. Because of my previous C-Section, my induction options are limited, and with the holidays being a pain for scheduling, we were booked for my Just In Case C-Section on Christmas Eve. So weird having a date where I know M will be here, no matter what.

How far along am I right now? 36 Weeks (9 months)

I am thinking…About how close we are now! How I’m going to handle this whole stay at home mom thing. How I can’t wait for my upcoming baby shower. I miss seeing all my friends together <3

I am thankful for…Our amazing health care system that allows me to get checked out even when we are pretty sure everything is ok but just want to double check.

I am creating…Not much. I don’t have much energy these days and my body is so sore.

I am going…to try and rest, despite my insane nesting urge to constantly clean and organize.

I am hoping…that baby M arrives well before his Christmas eviction date.

Around the house…trying not to overdo it, which has been proving to be difficult. My goals right now are to get on top of laundry and clean out our deep freezer so that we have room for freezer meals.

One of my favorite things…Halloween treats. Yum!

Weight Gain: Somewhere around 25lbs?

Baby in the Produce World:  Baby Centre says baby M is now as big as a head of romaine lettuce. That seems big. Eep. (36 weeks)
 Movement/Signs of the Baby: Holy, this kid has not been gentle on my insides. I swear he’s trying to claw and punch his way out. With Liam, I joked that he was a tiny ninja or dancer. This kiddo is hulk. He wakes me up with his jabs, and I have definitely felt pain at some of his movements. He moves around a lot. He is head down, and goes from low to high, curled up to stretched WAY out.

Cravings and Aversions: Chips and onion dip, cereal with milk and sugar, chocolate bars.
Body Changes/Weirdness: I think I’ve started to lose my mucous plug. Discharge is gross and frequent and man, do I hurt ALL the time. I feel like a rotisserie chicken with the amount of turning I have to do during the night due to sore hips (even with my snoogle). Bending is becoming very difficult (and sometimes impossible), depending on where baby is located. Also, peeing. Kid sometimes makes it impossible for me to pee. Ugh.
Other Random Babeh/Pregnancy thoughts: I am going to try to post more frequently as we get closer to the date, but I’m not sure it’s going to work out. We’ll have to wait and see. Basically, with all of my symptoms, baby could come at any time.

Pregnancy Update: Month 7

Sorry for the confusing title changes to these posts. It occurs to me that evening though I post this when I hit the following month, I am talking about the previous month…errr…confusng. Anyway, this post is about my 7th month of Pregnancy. So, yeah.

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A peek at month 7: Thank the Gods, month 7 was far less intense than last month. We did have one visit to triage, but everything looks good so I’m not worried. We got the results back on my gestational diabetes test and I PASSED!! WOOHOO! Who’s eating apple pie for breakfast? This guy.The weather has turned a bit cooler, and I’m definitely feeling gigantic, so we haven’t been out and active in a bit. We did have a lovely thanksgiving with my in-laws though.Oh, and a wonderful friend and fellow April Mom (L and her daughter were born in the same month three years ago, we have been friends since pregnancy) has offered to be our doula!! I’m so excited!

How far along am I right now? 32 Weeks (8 months)

I am thinking…About all the final details. DH is meeting our OB this month, and we have added a good friend of mine to our birthing team, as our Doula. I’m repacking our hospital bag and making sure our people are ready to care for Liam and our pets when the time comes.

I am thankful for…The beautiful weather, tea, and pumpkin scones.

I am creating…Lots of Halloween crafts with Liam, some Christmas stuff (hoping to get it all done early so I can just focus on baby)

I am going…keep working until the end of November, if all goes well.

I am hoping…that baby M isn’t going to be as huge as everyone thinks he will be.

Around the house…Trying to stay on top of cleaning and decluttering. We are pretty much ready for baby, with the exception of a few small things. DH has to fix our free glider, that sort of thing.

One of my favorite things…My snoogle and zantac. Night time has been BRUTAL for heartburn and hip pain.

Weight Gain: Somewhere around 25lbs?

Baby in the Produce World:  Baby Centre says baby M is now as big as a stalk of kale. Really? (at 32 weeks)
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 Movement/Signs of the Baby: Definitely way more movement this month! I have been unsuccessful at capturing video of it, and poor Daddy still hasn’t felt much, but I definitely do. He looooooves to kick my ribs and headbutt my pelvis. My poor bladder seems to be a comfy pillow for him as well.

Cravings and Aversions: Pumpkin Scones from Starbucks are the big one, and cheesy delicious pizza from Gabriel’s. Yum. No major aversions at the moment.
Body Changes/Weirdness: Welcome pregnancy insomnia and frequent pee breaks! Also, TMI time folks: For those of you who may not know, pregnancy brings about a lovely change often referred to as swamp crotch. This basically means you have a LOT more discharge and your crotch is pretty much always damp. Well, mine ramped WAY up this month, which brought us to Triage out of concern that I was leaking amniotic fluid. All turned out ok, but I am living in Poise liners now (or as Liam likes to call them “Mommy’s Diapers”). Otherwise, it’s all the typical stuff. My bellybutton is now an outie, my boobs are huge and sore, my belly is decorated in tiger’s stripes. Interestingly enough, I don’t have the crazy foot swelling that I had with Liam and I don’t think I’ve really had braxton hicks at all this time around (last time I had them CONSTANTLY)
Other Random Babeh/Pregnancy thoughts: Can I seriously get bigger? Ugh. My maternity clothes are already giving up the fight. Elastic waists don’t stay up and shirts barely cover my bump.
Other Pictures from the 7th month:

Pregnancy Update: End of Month 6, Beginning of 7 – Bye Bye 2nd Trimester!

What a freaking month. The 2nd Trimester definitely went out with a bang.

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27 Weeks

A peek at month 6: So, my 6th month started with some bleeding. This, my friends, was not a good start. Baby and I are fine, but it ended up causing a whole bunch of stress. I am RH-. What this means, is if my blood mixes with baby’s, my body will create antibodies to fight the foreign blood, and the baby could be harmed as a result. As with Liam’s pregnancy, I was told to go call in right away if I had spotting, and any more than that, I should go to the ER.

As I am in shared care with my GP and an OB, I first called my OB and found out he was on vacation. His receptionist was awesome and immediately calmed me down. I then gave Triage at the hospital a call, and they told me to rest up. The most they would do at this point is just monitor the heart beat and potentially give an ultrasound. They recommended seeing my own doctor first if I was worried. So, I called the GP and immediately she launched into THIS IS NOT A DRILL! PANIC PANIC PANIC GET THEE TO A HOSPITAL mode. So, I called triage again and they were confused by the freak out. They assured me bleeding is common and because of the small amount, the best thing I could do is rest and monitor baby’s movements from home. They said I could come in any time if I was nervous, but that it wasn’t necessary. So, I stayed home and took some time off work. I had no more bleeding and felt pretty ok, so I figured the situation was resolved.

NOPE! Cue further panic and now anger from GP about the way triage and my OB handled things. I was sent for an ultrasound to make sure everything was ok.

And the ultrasound says….

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Though it was a nerve-wracking hour long ultrasound, complete with OB visit due to potential issues, everything looks great. Baby is a big healthy boy. This whole situation made me annoyed at the lack of communication and the varying responses, so I switched to full care with my OB. All of this pretty much spanned the entire month. I just switched to my OB last week.

So, aside from that drama, we finally picked a name (I will refer to Baby as Baby M from now on. The name won’t be announced for a little while. Sorry!) and we started arranging things around the house for baby stuff. The crib is set up in our room.

Small nightstand with diapers and sleepers. Crib set up beside the bed.

Small nightstand with diapers and sleepers. Crib set up beside the bed.

I was generously gifted a beautiful glider. I have started washing and sorting all the baby clothes. The hospital bag is in the works and I am now working on getting my diapers set up.

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Liam and I are currently fighting bad colds, which means no sleep here. I am living in support belts or my ring slings, as my hip, belly, back and pelvic pain is constant now. I am in the process of getting my shots to deal with my RH- status and I am waiting on my glucose test results.

How far along am I right now? 28 weeks. Third trimester just started!!

I am thinking…About everything else we have to arrange. Who will care for Maddie and Cole? When should I start prepping my freezer meal stash?

I am thankful for…The steadfast people in our lives.

I am creating…Nothing. All the stress of month 6 put all of my knitting and crafting aside. Thinking about maybe making a mobile for baby, but that’s about it.

I am going…to lose my mind trying to make it to all of these appointments while also managing a very emotional 3 year old.

I am hoping…that health drama calms down and we finish things out calmly and nicely.

Around the house…The new playroom has been a huge hit! I have sorted out all of the baby clothes into sizes and washed them. I have also organized all of the baby toys we still have from Liam. I am in the process of prepping diapers (My friend S still has a bunch of my stash, but I have been organizing the stuff I do have into sizing, prepping the new stuff, bleaching and washing stuff I have bought second hand or leant out to other friends. Next I will stuff/organize and set up by size).

One of my favorite things…This crazy expensive soda I found at the grocery store. It’s an extra dry vanilla pop. It’s super bubbly, not too sweet and super tasty.

Weight Gain: With all the health stuff, I have lost a bit. I am currently sitting between 15-20lbs

Baby in the Produce World:  Baby Centre says baby M is now as big as a large eggplant (at 28 weeks)
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 Movement/Signs of the Baby: Kiddo really really amped up his movements in month 6. He is an active little dude. Differing than his brother in one way though, instead of hiding when people try to feel him move, he just calms right down and stops moving all together. This means poor Daddy has really only felt the smallest nudge, but that’s it.

Cravings and Aversions: Craving chocolate and sweet things, but that’s about it. Fell in love with Apple Cinnamon Cheerios. Soooooo good. Still hating Jane’s chicken nuggets.
Body Changes/Weirdness: More aches and pains, weird nerve pain in my legs, my calves keep cramping up and baby feels super low a lot.
Other Random Babeh/Pregnancy thoughts: How on earth am I going to manage the sleep deprivation with such an active preschooler?
Other Pictures from the 6th month:

Pregnancy Update: Month 5

Man, this whole weeks into months thing is confusing as hell. According to my prenatal journal thingie and some pages on the interwebs, I am now in my 6th month. So, yeah. Guess it’s time for an update?

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A peek at month 5: Month 5 wasn’t an easy one. I had a lot of anxiety surrounding the baby (why can’t I feel baby yet? Is baby ok?), and my nausea came back abruptly, joined by heartburn, an eczema flare up, pelvic and hip pain, and insomnia. Weeeee. Oh, and my oven caught fire randomly while I was prepping dinner, causing me a great deal of stress and more strain on our finances. Amazingly, one of my co-workers and good friends saved the day and generously helped us get a new stove! Nesting ramped up, making me desperate to get things started in prepping for baby. Thankfully, it marked hitting the half way point and we also got to find out baby’s sex at an ultrasound! Woo!

And the ultrasound says….

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How far along am I right now? 22 weeks, 6 days. In my 6th month.

I am thinking…About baby names! We had River picked out for a girl, but nothing that we both love for a boy! Ruh roh.

I am thankful for…My job and my friends. The amount of kindness, understanding and generosity that they have shown us has been incredible.

I am creating…Started on a little gnome hat, but didn’t enjoy working in such a small gauge. I think I will maybe move on to Elizabeth Zimmerman’s Surprise Baby Jacket and some baby mittens. I am worried In Threes may be a little too femme for a boy. Thoughts?

I am going…to keep working at keeping our house tidy and sorting through our crap. Decluttering is my life.

I am hoping…that we find a name that we both love

Around the house…Even though it technically falls under month 6, I have to talk about it. My dear friend and neighbour, Anna, came over and helped me clean, declutter and organize our entire main floor. We now have a play room where our dining room used to be, a kitchen we can actually use and a family room that doesn’t feel like a bomb exploded. I love it!

Liam's new playroom

Liam’s new playroom

One of my favorite things…Cheese and fanta. Don’t judge me.

Weight Gain: More than 20lbs :D

Baby in the Produce World:  Baby Centre says baby is as big as spahgetti squash
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 Movement/Signs of the Baby: A few flutters here and there before the ultrasound. Around week 21 that changed and suddenly I feel more movement and stretching. Baby doesn’t kick and punch like his brother did, but is definitely an active little dude when he wants to be.

Cravings and Aversions: These days I’m craving dairy, mostly cheese. I also find myself craving comfort foods, like soups, stews and chowders. The only new aversion I seem to have is to Jane’s Chicken Nuggets, which happen to be one of the only things Liam will eat. Ugh.
Body Changes/Weirdness: Heartburn, bad eczema, bad hair. Ugh.
Other Random Babeh/Pregnancy thoughts: I am so curious to see what this baby looks like and what his personality is. He seems to be different from his brother already :)
Other Pictures from the 5th month:

Tuesday Day Book

I’m really sorry for the lack of real posts lately, but I can’t seem to find the energy. These memes are great for getting me on here, but I hate that I’m sort of spamming you guys. I’ll try to be better, I promise. In the mean time:

A peek at the past week (how I’ve been): Up and down, again. It’s been very busy. I ended up having a really good weekend, but there was definitely some hard days in there.

I am thinking… about lunch. My co-worker has gone home sick, so I have to eat and work. Also thinking about babies, family, and our plans for the future.

I am thankful for… Spring! Spring is definitely here in Ottawa. Yesterday, we hit a balmy 20 degrees celcius! It has done wonders for my mood, despite the unpleasant side effects of spring (Mum’s anniversary, birthday, baby rabies, the past coming back to haunt me, etc…). I’m planning and plotting gardens, outdoor spaces, etc… :)

From the kitchen… Tomato Soup Cake with homemade vanilla buttercream icing! I wish I had taken a picture…perhaps I’ll do that tonight and post the recipe. It’s super easy, though the icing was time consuming. A really tasty and comforting treat.

I am wearing… Fancy underpants. They are boy-cut style, with lace, flowers and ribbon.

I am creating… plans for my garden. I’m also trying to figure out how to handle some issues in our yard. We have a neighbourhood cat using our front garden as a litter box. I’ve tried Cayenne pepper, but the rain keeps washing it away.

I am going… to be receiving my dress that I recently purchased from Mod Cloth. It’s for a friend’s wedding (It’s a 50s themed wedding) and my sister’s art school graduation in May. It’s pretty much the brightest, most ridiculous piece of clothing I’ve ever owned. Once I get it and know that it fits, I’ll share it with you.

I am reading… For a few demons more (some urban fantasy fluff, that I’m enjoying) and The Very Best of Charles de Lint.

I am hoping… A good trip west. I’ve been cursed, as I mentioned, and could really use a break

I am hearing… That we have sold my family home! We received an offer near the end of last week. We countered, over the weekend, and they accepted it last night.

Around the house…Lots of cleaning to do! My BFF, Sarah, and I are having a girly night on Saturday! I need to baby proof and make sure we’re comfy while the husbands are off at a bachelor party. I also need to prep our guest room for her hubby, who will crash with us.

One of my favorite things… Ridiculous cat things. A friend posted this the other day and I’ve decided that my future children MUST HAVE IT:

KITTEH!

A few plans for the rest of the week: Tonight, cleaning and organizing. Estate business. Tomorrow, Beer and Wings night with friends. Thursday, a trip to Orleans for estate business.

Here is picture! Yay!

Tuesday Day book and music

A peek at the past week (how I’ve been): Up and down. It’s been a roller-coaster! I had a fantastic night on Thursday with Jamie, but was then sick on Friday. Saturday was an amazing day with Sarah and then L’s bridal shower and my cousin-in-laws buffet and bowling dirty 30 birthday.  Sunday was a good day until some estate drama.

I am thinking… about tactics. How to move forward. How to face adversity, and stand up for myself without aggravating the situation and making things worse. Oh, and babies.  Oh, and about what I’m doing for Beltane. No plans yet, and that makes me sad.

I am thankful for… Good friends! I have had a great week of friends. Long conversations, girly days, sangria in a great restaurant, epic emails, plans and new connections. I am really excited about getting to know a girl friend of mine from University. We’ve been talking about hanging out for a while but never really got around to it. We’ve recently connected on FB and are plotting a craft day. I’m excited :)

From the kitchen… Nada. We’re broke right now. I’m trying to be creative with what we have to make it last longer.

I am wearing… I think this question needs to go. Hrm. Suggestions for a better question? Maybe about my underpants. My underpants are awesome today. Pink, ribbons and a thong on the bottom, black and awesome on top.

I am creating… Nothing yet. Been pondering creative ventures. I’m also in the planning stages with one of my besties about a matching tattoo for us before she moves away.

I am going… to start job hunting soon. My hours are dropping in about a month, so I need to pick up something part time to make up for it. Thinking about book stores and cafes. We’ll see.

I am reading… For a few demons more (some urban fantasy fluff, that I’m enjoying) and The Very Best of Charles de Lint.

I am hoping… For a break. Seriously. I really need a break.

I am hearing… A whole lot of BS, which isn’t unusual. Also some great support from good friends.

Around the house…I have some cleaning to do tonight! Pat and I are hosting Jamie tomorrow, if all goes well. Also, I’ve been trying to sort through all the pictures I’ve inherited from my parents place. It’s a massive collection.

One of my favorite things… Taking time for me. This weekend, that included painting my nails and watching Return of the King extended edition. Also, Face masks from Lush. Seriously, my bestie, Leigh, got me into them and they are now my standby for when my face is acting up or when I’m stressed out.  I currently have a pot of Sacred Truth. It’s awesome.

A few plans for the rest of the week: Tonight, cleaning and organizing. This will hopefully be a de-stress for me as well. Tomorrow, Jamie will be over for dinner and games. Saturday is the anniversary of my Mum’s death, so I’m not sure what I’ll be up for this weekend.

Here is picture! Yay!

 

Annnnnnnnd Music Meme:

10. a song that makes you fall asleep

In Memory of Trees, Enya. For this, I blame both my amazing massage therapist, Diana, and my oldest friend, Brytani. When Brytani and I used to have sleepovers, she couldn’t sleep without listening to music. Enya was a big staple in our “go to sleep” soundtrack, so after a couple of years of that it’s almost an instant trigger for me.

Meme catch up!

Sorry to miss yesterday. I was on a professional development course at work all day, so I ended up no having any time at the computer.

day 03 – a song that makes you happy

There are many, but these two always puts a smile on my face:

Sister Kate, The Ditty Bops

Say Hey, Michael Franti & Spearhead

day 04 – a song that makes you sad

Hard Times, Eastmountainsouth. This is the song that I listened to after both my parents died. It’s from the Elizabethtown soundtrack (If you haven’t seen the movie, it’s basically about a man who has moved away from home to pursue a career and had distanced himself from his family. His father died, and he has to come home for the funeral. Throw in some romance, some complicated family dynamics and some really sweet touches, and you have a great but heartbreaking movie). Once Tracy and Lacy had arrived from Calgary, after Dad’s passing, I remember sitting down in Dad’s office. I put on this song, and we sang and cried together.

let us pause in life’s pleasures and count its many tears
while we all sup sorrow with the poor
there’s a song that will linger forever in our ears
oh, hard times come again no more

’tis a song… a sigh of the weary
hard times… hard times come again no more
many days you have lingered around my cabin door
oh… hard times come again no more

while we seek mirth and beauty
and music light and gay
there are frail ones fainting at the door
though their voices are silent
their pleading looks will say
oh, hard times come again no more

’tis a song… a sigh of the weary
hard times… hard times come again no more
many days you have lingered around my cabin door
oh, hard times come again no more

’tis a sigh that is wafted across the troubled wave
’tis a wail that is heard upon the shore
’tis a dirge that is murmured around the lowly grave
oh, hard times come again no more

’tis a song…a sigh of the weary
hard times… hard times come again no more
many days you have lingered around my cabin door
oh, hard times come again no more
oh, hard times come again no more

Cosmic Love, Florence and the Machine. This song is just so beautiful and heartbreaking to me. It makes me think of my Mum, as I listened to it a lot around her death. It also makes me think of Pat and I, and how he has gone right down into the darkness with me to get me through all of the crap that this past year has dumped on us.

A falling star fell from your heart and landed in my eyes
I screamed aloud, as it tore through them, and now it's left me blind

The stars, the moon, they have all been blown out
You left me in the dark
No dawn, no day, I'm always in this twilight
In the shadow of your heart

And in the dark, I can hear your heartbeat
I tried to find the sound
But then, it stopped, and I was in the darkness,
So darkness I became

The stars, the moon, they have all been blown out
You left me in the dark
No dawn, no day, I'm always in this twilight
In the shadow of your heart

I took the stars from my eyes, and then I made a map
And knew that somehow I could find my way back
Then I heard your heart beating, you were in the darkness too
So I stayed in the darkness with you

The stars, the moon, they have all been blown out
You left me in the dark
No dawn, no day, I'm always in this twilight
In the shadow of your heart

The stars, the moon, they have all been blown out
You left me in the dark
No dawn, no day, I'm always in this twilight
In the shadow of your heart 

And for the next meme, the Tuesday Daybook:

A peek at the past week (how I’ve been): No more window for me! Let’s talk about the week past, shall we? I’ve been up and down, and lately, more so down. I’m trying to live my life according to my word, Acceptance, but it’s been very hard the last week.

I am thinking… about my plans, my friends and my family. I can’t wait for this estate stuff to be over so that we can move on. Also, I need spring. Now. I need the sun and the warmth. I need that comfort.

I am thankful for… Good friends and my husband. They have been able to calm me down, comfort me, make me laugh and get me back on track. This week, I’ve been especially thankful for my sister in law, Stacie. She and I have spent a lot of time together and she’s been a god send in helping me deal with everything that’s been going on.

From the kitchen… I haven’t been up to much in the kitchen lately, which is perhaps a sign that things haven’t been good. I did do some cooking with my SIL over the weekend which turned out great. We made a veggie casserole and some tasty pasta for the husband (Super easy stuff! Rotini whole wheat pasta, in a pre-made sundried tomato alfredo sauce, with chicken and thick cut bacon).

The neat thing I tried in the kitchen this week were chia seeds! I call them “Goo Seeds”, and am looking forward to including them in my diet. They have incredible health benefits and can easily be included in your day. (high in protein and omega 3s, has calcium, iron, fiber, antioxidants) The SIL showed me how they absorb water. It’s the coolest thing! One tsp in a cup of water and they just go to town! They absorb a ton of the water and form a gelatin like goo around themselves. More information on these seeds can be found here.

I am wearing… Nothing fancy today, but I recently picked up some great new clothes when I went shopping last week. Looking forward to more of a warm weather wardrobe.

I am creating… Nothing :(

I am going… no where, right now.

I am reading… A Fistful of Charms (some urban fantasy fluff, that I’m enjoying) and The Very Best of Charles de Lint.

I am hoping… that I have a good time tomorrow with my friend/ex.

I am hearing… A whole lot of BS. Yay for dramas!

Around the house…I’ve been trying to stay on top of cleaning, but it’s been an up-hill battle. I was away, then sick. Then Pat was sick. Now, we’re both too busy and tired to care.

One of my favorite things… Shopping with my SIL. Today we’re going to a little shop in one of my favourite parts of town. The shop is amazing and it’s been years since I’ve had the time to pop by. Can’t wait!

A few plans for the rest of the week: Wrapping up some estate business, shopping with the SIL, hanging out with my friend/ex, a bridal shower for a good friend, a trip to the spa for pedis with one of my beegirls, and a 30th birthday party for my cousin-in-law.

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EDIT:

I’m going to add this here, because it needs to be shared and this post is as good as any. I absolutely fucking love The Bloggess, and this just makes me adore her more.

Today is sort of like Tuesday, right?

Sorry folks, this long weekend messed me up and I totally forgot about the day book yesterday. Here it is, a wee bit late:

Outside my window… is the sun, which is trying to show us that spring is definitely on the way. Walking back from my appointment this morning, I could feel the sun on my back, which is a definite indicator of warm days to come. Woo!

I am thinking… everything that I have to do over the next few weeks. I’m insanely busy right up until the moment that I step onto New Orleans soil.

I am thankful for… day planners. I couldn’t even try to keep this all organized if I didn’t have a million calenders and lists going. What is my method? Well, I have my google calender linked on my iphone, so I can access it no matter where I am. I also have the Listomni app on my phone (expensive, let me warn you. I do use it for everything though, including groceries, to do lists, gift lists, movies we want to see, etc… You can also use it for budgets, which I may try for this trip.) I also have a pretty real day planner and diary. I make many lists. There’s just something about writing a list down that helps it stick in my memory.

From the kitchen… I have been too depressed to cook. I know how sad that sounds, but all I want is crap. Unfortunately, my body has noticed and I’m up in weight AGAIN. Ugh.

I am wearing… work clothes. Nothing exciting. I seriously need to go shopping sometime soon though. My dryer has destroyed all my little camisoles. Jerk.

I am creating… Not much, sadly. Lists and plans. The estate has me way too busy to do anything fun.

I am going… back and forth to the house a lot this week. Hopefully, by the time I leave for NO, LA. I will get a bit of a break

I am reading… Interview with a Vampire by Anne Rice. I had to get my mind ready for this trip :D

I am hoping… To get through this all. This has been an incredibly trying and lonely time for me.

I am hearing… that one of my oldest friends, who happens to be my first real ex, is coming to town for work. I’m looking forward to seeing him again after nearly 8 years.

Around the house… I have my luggage sitting, waiting to be packed. I’m started doing laundry

One of my favorite things… chai tea latte on a chilly day. May pick some up tonight on our way out.

A few plans for the rest of the week: Too much. This weekend we’re doing a big move to get my stuff out of the estate. Lots of estate business.

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A day late – The Day Book

I wrote this yesterday, but never got around to posting it. Keep that in mind when reading the answers that it was all supposed to be for Tuesday.

Outside my window… is the approaching spring. You can feel it in the air now. Can’t wait.

I am thinking… my upcoming travels as well as my upcoming trials. An appointment with the lawyer this Friday.

I am thankful for… my friends and family. They have been amazingly supportive with all of this badness. I am also thankful for Red Velvet cake. It is delicious and makes most things better, at least temporarily.

From the kitchen… Leftovers! Lots of chili, potato soup and meatballs to get through.

I am wearing…One of the silk scarves my sister dyed. It’s greys and yellows, which go really well with my teal sweater.

I am creating… not much right now, asides from all the cooking and baking I’ve been doing. Plotting a sham and mitten project for myself. Right now I’m thinking that I’d like to do a “set”. My first two options I can make to be matching (click on the image for the Rav page):

 

Gretel

Hanzel

or

Thrummed Mittens

White Cap Slouchie

The other thing I can do is mix one of my favourite mitten patterns with one of my favourite tam/slouch pattern. I’d love to hear which ones you guys like.

Hats:

Rose Red

Verity

Skeleton Key

Jane

Fenimore

With one of these Mittens:

Karisma

Thistle

Magic Mirror Mittens

Flocked

Verity and Skeleton Key are my favourite of the bunch (which I all love), as are Thistle (minus the “skirting” at the base) and Flocked. Ideas? Comments? Suggestions?

I am going… to an office supply store tonight. That shouldn’t excite me nearly as much as it does. Tomorrow, I’m going to my favourite pub in the world with some of Pat’s friends from work.

I am reading… Tigana still. Going to soon be starting my Anne Rice collection again in honour of my upcoming adventures.

I am hoping… that this meeting goes well and that the estate can get back on track. I just want this done.

I am hearing… a lot of Laura Marling lately. It’s my calm music.

Around the house… I haven’t done a big clean in a while and it desperately needs it. Laundry is also begging to be done.

One of my favorite things… Honey. I wont go into my incredible and deep love of bees and honey, but I will say that this lady makes some amazingly delicious infused honeys. Personally, I’d recommend Bunny Hunny, Chai Honey, and Chamomile Vanilla as my favourites.

A few plans for the rest of the week: Shopping today, pub tomorrow, relax on Thursday,  lawyer’s appointment on Friday. Long weekend thanks to “Family Day” on Monday.

Here is picture for thought I am sharing…