Review: Ipsy April Glam Bag

Theme: Beautifully Bohemian. Man, was I excited about this. Boho is my jam.

April Ipsy Glam Bag

The Bag: I get what they were going for here, but I just don’t dig the look. I wish they had done for more of a patchwork look. The colours on this bag don’t read boho to me. I don’t see myself keeping this one.

The Loot:

Julie G Nail Colour in Damsel

Man, I was not sure about this colour when I saw it in my sneak peek. Was I ever wrong! This colour is perfect for spring. It is rich and fresh and I just love it. The product itself was great too. It has great coverage, and the applicator was great. I am definitely a fan.

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Aromachology Sophisticated & Sensual Floral Eau de Parfum

I love perfume samples. Love them. I adore smelling pretty and samples give me the opportunity to do so without a huge investment. This specific perfume is lovely. It’s citrusy, floral and fresh. It’s pretty without being too heavy and sultry. On me it gets warmer, which is great because in the bottle it smells a little soapy. Now, I’m not sure if this specific scent is what I would call boho. I was expecting something more…incensey, with sandlewoods or patchouli, you know? I’m glad I got it, I just don’t know if it fits the theme. I am very happy with the size of the sample. I’ll get lots of wear out of it.

Lather Ultra Light Face Lotion

I’m getting the feeling that Ipsy really really wants me to moisturize. Well, fine then. Let’s give it a shot. I loved the lightness of this lotion. It absorbed in right away and was completely non-greasy. The scent is lovely too and makes me think of roses. I would definitely use this one again

theBalm Cosmetics NUDE Dude Eyeshadow Single in Flirty

I was hoping to get this shade! I have to say, the formula is great. It has good coverage and shine. The colour is perfect for my crease, especially with the colours I typically use. I was pretty disappointed in the size of the shadow. It is TINY. Definitely not full sized.

Starlooks Satin finish lip gloss

Ok, I have to say I was not excited about this gloss. It looked kind of meh. The colour ended up being a perfect neutral for me. It’s perfect for more of a natural or heavy eye look. Did not expect to love it like I do! This one is going to live in my purse. The one thing I will say is that it is kind of sticky, but I can handle that.

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Sorry if I look a little blah in this month’s look. I have been sick for a while now and did the best I could considering the sinus infection. So, overall, I really enjoyed this month’s glam bag. The colours and formulas are great for me. I am a little disappointed in how they fit with the theme, but I’m a bit of a dork like that.

Three

I can’t believe it. My squishy, chubby sassy baby is 3 years old. How did this happen?

Here’s a look back at two and one.

Around 39″ tall (about 3.25 feet), 38lbs

Nicknames: Monkey, kiddo, turd, turdmonkey, buddy, Mimi (Wesley, Liam’s cousin, calls him that)

Diapers: In pull ups and cruisers in 6, but is starting to get the hang of the potty.

Noms: This kid is fussy. Seriously. The only things he will eat are: Peanut butter, milk chocolate, olives, chicken nuggets, french fries, cold uncooked hot dogs, waffles, gold fish, ice cream, apples, bananas, frozen blueberries and strawberry yogurt.

Big Changes: Talking our ear off, having serious opinions and asking questions, starting to potty train, missing people when we aren’t with them, telling us he loves us.

An interview:

  1. How old are you? Surprise!
  2. What is your favourite colour? Blue
  3. What is your favourite animal? Green (when asked again, he said giraffe)
  4. What is your favourite book? I don’t know! Green!
  5. What is your favourite show? Jump jump jump?
  6. What is your favourite movie? Hot Wheels
  7. What is your favourite song? Alphabet Song
  8. What is your favourite food? Peanut butter
  9. What is your favourite snack? FISHIES
  10. What is your favourite outfit? Dress
  11. What is your favourite game? Ball
  12. What is your favourite toy? swords
  13. Who is your best friend?  Gus and Byron
  14. What is your favourite thing to do? Play
  15. What is your favourite thing to do outside? Play on the slide
  16. What is your favourite holiday? Halloween
  17. What do you want to be when you grow up? Taller

Man, this kid. I will tell you, Three is tough so far. Or rather, the end of twos is tough. Suddenly, he is a handful. Two handfuls.  Spirited doesn’t cover it. He Goes and goes and goes and doesn’t stop to listen. He is kind and sweet and hilarious. He is emotional, like me, and stubborn. He tells me every day that he loves me and he wishes me sweet dreams at night. I am so excited to watch him continue to grow, to continue to become who he is.

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Happy birthday, monkey. We love you so much. Thank you for helping me become who I am today <3

Fuck April

If you are a long time reader, you know that this is not my favourite month. If not, you may be confused. Why hate April? April is a time of flowers and the sun warming us up again! It’s so pretty and awesome! Well, not for this babe.

Consider this a warning that I may be bummed or absent this month. Why?  Well, 5 years ago, our place was pretty much ready to be sold and we were in the midst of moving in with my mother. I was her fulltime caregiver and was moving in to help her through her final months. I was set to move on April 1st, but circumstances resulted in some reno delays, so we rescheduled for April 10th. That first week of April, I was in and out of the house pretty much daily. I was bringing boxes, finishing up our room and getting feedback from Mom on what we needed to do to finish up my change to becoming her full time care (I would be the one taking care of finances, bills, getting her to appointments, getting results, etc…as her health declined).

Easter weekend arrived and the family descended upon the house. Mom wasn’t feeling great, so everyone cooked for her (in all of the years of family dinners, she never gave up cooking the main course. Never. This should have been a sign). I remember thinking she looked so small and tired. She basically hung out on the couch the entire visit. On April 7th or 8th, after a being away for a day, but in constant contact by phone, I arrived to find her best friends at the house. I was dropping off some more boxes and on my way to buy some more with a friend who had a pickup. Her best friends informed me she had declined (and was hiding it from me, because it was Mom. Ugh). I had no idea that this would be her last day at home. That she would pass away the next day. I had no idea that my Dad’s kids, people I considered siblings, would completely lose their minds and turn on me. That it would take 2 years for us to complete the estate and that I would end up with a diagnosis of PTSD, severe anxiety and depression.

That same time, 2 years later, when everything wrapped up with the estate, I had my beautiful baby boy. As my labour began, I had no idea that I would struggle through 32 hours of labour, that I would end up getting an emergency c-section, my kid in the NICU, a week long hospital stay, terrible recovery, a relapse of PTSD and severe PPA and PPD.

Here I am, 3 years since then, 5 years since my mother died, that I am going through a difficult time again. I don’t want to get into it. I’m not ready to. I have been missing my parents so terribly, hell, I miss my family. These horrible times have shaped me. I have been forged through flame. I forgive myself for my failings during my mother’s illness and the mess of the estate. I am finally ok with my birth story and that I couldn’t be more in love with my stunningly amazing baby boy (who is a freaking preschooler now). I have incredible people in my life who support and love me. Because of these hardships, I am ok, despite things being tough.

So, fuck April. I am so much stronger than you give me credit for.

Spring

I empathize with Spring this year. I don’t want to leave the house yet. I am comfortable under my layers of blankets and sweaters. I feel like I have more thinking and coping to do. That said, I think everyone is so very ready for the bleak cold winter days to be OVER ALREADY.

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Sisters, Winter and Spring.

The last few weeks have been rough here. I feel like the poor plants, trapped in the cold earth, waiting for the weather to change and welcome me back. My Mom’s birthday came and went, and I felt my heart breaking for my son’s lack. He will never know how her eyes sparkled and her laugh cackled when she was truly amused by something. He will never know her stern look over the frame of her glasses, paired by that Marge-esq grumble. He is at an age now where he remembers. He misses people and he asks about them. He tells elaborate stories about his best friend, Gus. He talks about his favourite person in the world, his Auntie Tracy. When my Mum’s birthday came, and he saw me crying while watching a tribute video made by my Dad’s family (estranged to us), he was so worried. He doesn’t understand who these people are that I miss so terribly. I have pictures of them up, I talk about them as much as I can, but he doesn’t know them. There are just some days where that hurts so very much.

Ostara was kind of quiet for us this year. We talked a bit about it, I made a crustless quiche (my Mom’s recipe), and some bunny buns. I gave everyone some mini-eggs and that was it. At least, that was it until my girlfriend, Sarah, called up and told us that she had some extra tickets to the Live Dinosaur Train show. Such a great time! Liam loved it.

Bunny Buns and Quiche

Bunny Buns and Quiche

Liam and I at Dinosaur Train

Dinosaur Train!

A couple days later, I was overcome by the need to do some spring cleaning, and basically attacked the house. Unfortunately, my health hasn’t been great and I very quickly lost steam. I’m doing a tiny bit each day. My back, neck and knee have been acting up. It’s been 5 years since my accident, and I am seeing now how this has changed my life. Even the most basic things, like sitting on the floor to play with my kid and a ball is hard for me.

Easter is around the corner now. Much like Ostara, I don’t have my steam or excitement for it. We’ve been doing some crafts and talking about it as an extension of Ostara, but I can’t help but think about how it was the last holiday I had with Mom, 5 years ago. I can’t help but deeply miss my sister and wish that I was surrounded by loud, insane, offensive family all over again (My Dad’s kids and my parents. Tracy and I are very alike in that we became very small and quiet at the big family dinners. Of course, we helped each other stay sane during those crazy visits).

20150328_09290120150328_092925(1)On the plus side, all of this reflection has given me the push to finally save my pictures from my old desktop that has been sitting dead for 3 years. Pat managed to get it going long enough for me to back everything up. My goal is to start making family photo books. Gives me the ability to celebrate the family, love and support that I do have.

What are your plans for the holiday weekend?

Review: Ipsy March Glam Bag

It is that time again! I was thrilled to pick up my March bag in my mailbox on Friday, giving me the weekend to try out the products.My March Glam Bag from IpsyThe Bag: I love the bag! It makes me think of the Spring that we keep hoping for. We got a bunch of snow this morning, so having some bright flowers to look at is very welcome

The Loot:

LeeAnni Eco 3 in 1 Revolution Light

I was definitely curious to try this one out. Described as being for normal to oily skin, I was a bit nervous, but I didn’t find it drying at all. This product is supposed to be a Toner, Serum and Moisturizer in one, and honestly, my skin felt amazing after using it. Unfortunately, I did break out the next day. I’m willing to keep using it to see if my skin adjusts though. I think this would be perfect for warmer weather.

Pur~Lisse Gentle Soymilk Cleanser and Makeup Remover

Another face product I was excited to try. I have been having a hard time finding a cleanser that is gentle enough on my skin to keep my eczema at bay without being too greasy (booo pimples), while also being strong enough to remove the toughest of makeup. Sounds impossible, right? Well, pretty much. This stuff puts in a good effort though. My skin feels great after using it, but, like I said above, I did break out the next day, but that could have been the 3 in 1. Who knows.

Crown Brush Infinity Shadow/Crease Duet Brush

I love getting brushes. This one, especially, seeing as how it was 2 in 1! I found the main shadow brush side a little more stiff than I’m used to. This was awesome for the crease side, but it made general application a bit tricky. I could see using this for patting down glittery shadows, so I’ll have to give that a shot and see if it works a bit better.

Pixi by Petra Mesmerizing Mineral Duo

The consistency of these shadows is great. It’s saturated and slightly creamy. It felt great going on. The lighter colour is lovely, but neither one is quite right for me. I was hoping for a brighter apricot or peach. These were just slightly too mauve and pink. I will still use them, but they aren’t the best, you know? Also, the size that we received in the bag was quite small, which is a little disappointing.

NYX Cosmetics Butter Lipstick in Little Susie

I have heard so many good things about these butter lipsticks by Nyx. I was a little unsure about the colour, as I tend not to go with brights. This colour is a really lovely saturated pink, and I ended up really loving it. It is truly a perfect spring and summer shade. I lovely how creamy it feels, and how it didn’t dry out my lips at all. I will say that as it wore, I ended up with those lip liner lines, so I had to be careful to reapply frequently.

ipsymarch2So, definitely a good bag. Better than last month for me for sure. What did you get this month?

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  • LeeAnni Eco 3 in 1 Revolution Light
  • ELF foundation in 01
  • Makeup Forever Highlighting Concealer
  • Benefit Boi-ing Concealer
  • Makeup Forever HD Microfinish Powder
  • ELF Brow set in Medium on brows and for contouring
  • NARS blush in Orgasm
  • Pixi by Petra eyeshadow in Apricot Glow
  • Too Faced Better than Sex mascara
  • Nyx Butter Lipstick in Little Susie

Thawing

The sun is peeking through the curtains as I sit here with my coffee, while Liam plays with his toy tools (his new obsession). I am so excited by the spring weather we have finally been getting. I feel rejuvenated and like I’m shedding an old skin. Selfie of me Sitting outside in the sun

This was a hard winter for us. There have been big stresses for us this winter (financial, personal, and health). Combine that with the greyness, the cold and all that snow, we have not been feeling great for months. Yesterday, we took a nice long walk around the neighbourhood and let Liam excitedly splash through all the new spring puddles. It was wonderful. We are still adjusting to the time change (Arg, I am not a fan), but this sunshine and warmth makes it bearable.

I am starting to prep for the equinox. Crafts, activities and some tasty food. Liam and I started these egg carton flowers this morning, and I have to say that I love them. spring15cThey are super easy to make, and such a happy punch of spring colour. I think we will do some seed starting for the actual equinox and eat a quiche for dinner that night.

I have started a new exercise program too. I have been finding myself tired ALL THE TIME and think that my lack of activity probably has something to do with it. I have been feeling blob like for a while. While I love my body, no matter what the scale says, I do want to be able to have enough energy to play with my kid. Here’s hoping this helps! Any tips to keep your energy up and to stay fit, without being fat shaming? Oh, on that topic, I recently wrote a small rant on facebook and tumblr about fat shaming and the Dancing Man that I wanted to share with you. Check it out here.

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Heather’s Bucket List

Have you ever noticed how sometimes the Universe wants you to think about something? Well, this past week I stumbled across a friend’s blog and saw a great post on her Bucket List (for those who don’t know, a Bucket List is a list of things you want to do before you die or “Kick the Bucket”). Shortly thereafter, a group I’m in started talking about Bucket Lists too.

As someone who loves lists and dreaming, it’s strange that I have never written one out. (Further to that, one of my nicknames in High School was Bucket. Clearly, this is THE list for me). Well, I can take a hint. Clearly now is the time for me to start thinking about it. I think I may even make a separate “Bucket List” page, up at the top of the blog here, so that I can update it as I accomplish things.

I will also include things I have done that were on my mental list.

  • Graduate High School with Honours
  • Get a University Degree in the Arts
  • Travel to New Orleans
  • Own a cottage on a lake
  • Travel to Ireland and Scotland
  • Write and Publish a Book
  • Own my own business
  • Learn to Crochet
  • Have two children
  • Get a full sleeve tattooed
  • Go on a road trip in my own car
  • Visit Halifax
  • Learn to Quilt
  • Dye my hair black
  • Get my nose pierced
  • Get Boudoir/Nude photos done
  • See Tori Amos live
  • See Neko Case live
  • Honeymoon in Jamaica, just like my parents.
  • Own a house
  • Own a car
  • Live by the water
  • Knit a sweater for myself
  • Knit a colourwork piece (like Scandinavian mittens)
  • Learn to spin yarn
  • Learn to do pottery
  • Be able to do tarot readings without using reference books
  • Reach our 20th Wedding Anniversary
  • Sexy times with a lady
  • Travel to Newfoundland
  • Travel to PEI
  • Travel to BC
  • Meet Charles de Lint
  • Go Scuba Diving
  • Do a craft or art class with my sister
  • Do a craft or art class with my Mom

What is on your bucket list? Have you been able to accomplish much on it already?