Review: Ipsy May Glam Bag

Theme: Jet Setter

Ipsy May Glam Bag and Contents

Bag: Meh? It’s a canvas bag with a cute image, but honestly, it’s not my style.

The Loot:

Urban Decay 24/7 Glide-On Lip Pencil in Ozone and two Bonus Revolution High Colour Lip Glosses (in Failbait and Bittersweet)

I was sooooo excited to see something from Urban Decay in this bag. I love me some UD. I haven’t used any of their lip products before, so I was pleased to test them out. The pencil itself was sort of ok. I expected better glide. Instead, it felt sort of…beeswax-y? Maybe my lips were in really rough shape and just shredded it. I don’t know. It was sticky and not really great for me.

Now, the colours I liked. They were fun! Failbait is a great neutral pink for me and I would totally wear it regularly. Bittersweet is purple. This is definitely outside of my comfort zone, but I had fun with it. I can totally see it being amazing for a night out. It was a bit much for my day to day play-date and grocery shopping lifestyle though. The formula is ok. I liked the sheen, but I found it a bit sticky. Seemed to last a while though, which is great.

Ipsy Bag - demonstrating the purple "bittersweet" lipgloss

Bellapierre Cosmetics Waterproof Mineral Gel Eyeliner in black

I used to be that girl that never left the house without a heavy dose of black eyeliner. I still have a fondness for the stuff, though I don’t wear it much at all anymore. I really like the longevity of the formula. It really does stick around. That said, I found it a bit soft, so getting a good cat’s eye isn’t easy with this one. Definitely better for just basic lines and smudging. I don’t know that I would ever go out looking for this specific liner again, but it will serve me well while I have it.

Pixi by Petra Beauty Bronzer

I am not really a bronzer girl. I am super pale and rather than tanning, I freckle. Bronzer has a tendency to look either orange or sort of…dirty on me. That said, I am up for trying anything. The formula itself was actually quite nice. It was smooth and silky, and went on really really easily. I was able to blend it out without any issues. The colour was a little brown for me, but I can see it being good for summer evenings. I looooove the size of the sample. This was a full sized product. I appreciate that.

Luxie Beauty Tapered Blending Eye Brush 205

I love brushes. Somehow, despite my love and my collection, I don’t have a decent blending brush. I was excited to give this one a try. First, I love the pink and bronze colouring. Super pretty. The brush is soft and did a fantastic job of blending my eyeshadow. This is definitely going into regular rotation.

Bare Republic Naturals SPF 30 Mineral Face Sunscreen Lotion

Because I’m so incredibly pale and come from a background of Irish, Scottish and Ukrainian folk, keeping my skin safe is a big deal for me. I am always looking for new face sunscreens that don’t set off my eczema and don’t make me break out or feel like I’m wearing 10lbs of lard on my cheeks. I was super impressed by this lotion. It goes on like silk, and absorbs pretty quickly. My makeup went on top without any streaking or issues. I loved it! I’m sad that we no longer have a target here where I can pick this up.

My Ipsy may glam bag look

Overall, I really liked this month’s bag. I had quite a few hits in this one. I hope that one of these days I get the dry shampoo, but otherwise, I think I got the best of the selection of items this month. Did you get an ipsy bag this month? What did you think of what you got?

An Early Mother’s Day Gift

It is my third Mother’s Day. The day itself isn’t really a big deal in our house. My family does a pretty good job of making me feel appreciated and loved without a hallmark holiday. That said, I am always fond of a day where flowers and cards are encouraged. This year is even more special.  I got one hell of a gift.

Superhero Announcement

Yes! We are expecting a Yule baby!

babybeanSo, why has the last few weeks been difficult? Well,  on top of everything you read here, we’ve been having a crazy time leading up to this good news.

Back in March, I found I was feeling incredibly run down and sick all the time. I went to see my dr to see if there was something going on. While waiting for results, I decided to take a pregnancy test to see if maybe that was the cause of my troubles. This started a very confusing and difficult few weeks for us. You see, some pregnancy tests were coming back positive (yay!), but others were negative (huh?). My dr informed me that it looked like I was having an early miscarriage and blood tests confirmed. Time passed and I still felt pregnant, and the miscarriage didn’t come. It was a rollercoaster. We were afraid to feel anything, because the future felt like a massive unknown.

Easter weekend came and nothing changed. So, I tested again and it came back positive. My dr sent me for more tests and this time, we were confused and excited to get a very strong positive! Because of everything that happened, we were still very cautious. We also had no idea when I was due, because my cycle had been hugely wonky. My dr. sent me for an ultrasound this past week to confirm everything was looking good and the result was good!

I am excited to share this journey with you. I am nervous about going from one to two, but I can’t wait to bring another little one into our family. Morning Sickness has been brutal this time around, and my energy is pretty much non-existent. I hope to get posting more regularly again, but I can’t promise. I am now medicated, which is helping immensely, but I am still having a hard time. Thankfully, I live in a world of netflix and diclectin.

So, happy Mother’s Day to me, and to you, fellow mamas.

Review: Ipsy April Glam Bag

Theme: Beautifully Bohemian. Man, was I excited about this. Boho is my jam.

April Ipsy Glam Bag

The Bag: I get what they were going for here, but I just don’t dig the look. I wish they had done for more of a patchwork look. The colours on this bag don’t read boho to me. I don’t see myself keeping this one.

The Loot:

Julie G Nail Colour in Damsel

Man, I was not sure about this colour when I saw it in my sneak peek. Was I ever wrong! This colour is perfect for spring. It is rich and fresh and I just love it. The product itself was great too. It has great coverage, and the applicator was great. I am definitely a fan.

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Aromachology Sophisticated & Sensual Floral Eau de Parfum

I love perfume samples. Love them. I adore smelling pretty and samples give me the opportunity to do so without a huge investment. This specific perfume is lovely. It’s citrusy, floral and fresh. It’s pretty without being too heavy and sultry. On me it gets warmer, which is great because in the bottle it smells a little soapy. Now, I’m not sure if this specific scent is what I would call boho. I was expecting something more…incensey, with sandlewoods or patchouli, you know? I’m glad I got it, I just don’t know if it fits the theme. I am very happy with the size of the sample. I’ll get lots of wear out of it.

Lather Ultra Light Face Lotion

I’m getting the feeling that Ipsy really really wants me to moisturize. Well, fine then. Let’s give it a shot. I loved the lightness of this lotion. It absorbed in right away and was completely non-greasy. The scent is lovely too and makes me think of roses. I would definitely use this one again

theBalm Cosmetics NUDE Dude Eyeshadow Single in Flirty

I was hoping to get this shade! I have to say, the formula is great. It has good coverage and shine. The colour is perfect for my crease, especially with the colours I typically use. I was pretty disappointed in the size of the shadow. It is TINY. Definitely not full sized.

Starlooks Satin finish lip gloss

Ok, I have to say I was not excited about this gloss. It looked kind of meh. The colour ended up being a perfect neutral for me. It’s perfect for more of a natural or heavy eye look. Did not expect to love it like I do! This one is going to live in my purse. The one thing I will say is that it is kind of sticky, but I can handle that.

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Sorry if I look a little blah in this month’s look. I have been sick for a while now and did the best I could considering the sinus infection. So, overall, I really enjoyed this month’s glam bag. The colours and formulas are great for me. I am a little disappointed in how they fit with the theme, but I’m a bit of a dork like that.

Three

I can’t believe it. My squishy, chubby sassy baby is 3 years old. How did this happen?

Here’s a look back at two and one.

Around 39″ tall (about 3.25 feet), 38lbs

Nicknames: Monkey, kiddo, turd, turdmonkey, buddy, Mimi (Wesley, Liam’s cousin, calls him that)

Diapers: In pull ups and cruisers in 6, but is starting to get the hang of the potty.

Noms: This kid is fussy. Seriously. The only things he will eat are: Peanut butter, milk chocolate, olives, chicken nuggets, french fries, cold uncooked hot dogs, waffles, gold fish, ice cream, apples, bananas, frozen blueberries and strawberry yogurt.

Big Changes: Talking our ear off, having serious opinions and asking questions, starting to potty train, missing people when we aren’t with them, telling us he loves us.

An interview:

  1. How old are you? Surprise!
  2. What is your favourite colour? Blue
  3. What is your favourite animal? Green (when asked again, he said giraffe)
  4. What is your favourite book? I don’t know! Green!
  5. What is your favourite show? Jump jump jump?
  6. What is your favourite movie? Hot Wheels
  7. What is your favourite song? Alphabet Song
  8. What is your favourite food? Peanut butter
  9. What is your favourite snack? FISHIES
  10. What is your favourite outfit? Dress
  11. What is your favourite game? Ball
  12. What is your favourite toy? swords
  13. Who is your best friend?  Gus and Byron
  14. What is your favourite thing to do? Play
  15. What is your favourite thing to do outside? Play on the slide
  16. What is your favourite holiday? Halloween
  17. What do you want to be when you grow up? Taller

Man, this kid. I will tell you, Three is tough so far. Or rather, the end of twos is tough. Suddenly, he is a handful. Two handfuls.  Spirited doesn’t cover it. He Goes and goes and goes and doesn’t stop to listen. He is kind and sweet and hilarious. He is emotional, like me, and stubborn. He tells me every day that he loves me and he wishes me sweet dreams at night. I am so excited to watch him continue to grow, to continue to become who he is.

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Happy birthday, monkey. We love you so much. Thank you for helping me become who I am today <3

Fuck April

If you are a long time reader, you know that this is not my favourite month. If not, you may be confused. Why hate April? April is a time of flowers and the sun warming us up again! It’s so pretty and awesome! Well, not for this babe.

Consider this a warning that I may be bummed or absent this month. Why?  Well, 5 years ago, our place was pretty much ready to be sold and we were in the midst of moving in with my mother. I was her fulltime caregiver and was moving in to help her through her final months. I was set to move on April 1st, but circumstances resulted in some reno delays, so we rescheduled for April 10th. That first week of April, I was in and out of the house pretty much daily. I was bringing boxes, finishing up our room and getting feedback from Mom on what we needed to do to finish up my change to becoming her full time care (I would be the one taking care of finances, bills, getting her to appointments, getting results, etc…as her health declined).

Easter weekend arrived and the family descended upon the house. Mom wasn’t feeling great, so everyone cooked for her (in all of the years of family dinners, she never gave up cooking the main course. Never. This should have been a sign). I remember thinking she looked so small and tired. She basically hung out on the couch the entire visit. On April 7th or 8th, after a being away for a day, but in constant contact by phone, I arrived to find her best friends at the house. I was dropping off some more boxes and on my way to buy some more with a friend who had a pickup. Her best friends informed me she had declined (and was hiding it from me, because it was Mom. Ugh). I had no idea that this would be her last day at home. That she would pass away the next day. I had no idea that my Dad’s kids, people I considered siblings, would completely lose their minds and turn on me. That it would take 2 years for us to complete the estate and that I would end up with a diagnosis of PTSD, severe anxiety and depression.

That same time, 2 years later, when everything wrapped up with the estate, I had my beautiful baby boy. As my labour began, I had no idea that I would struggle through 32 hours of labour, that I would end up getting an emergency c-section, my kid in the NICU, a week long hospital stay, terrible recovery, a relapse of PTSD and severe PPA and PPD.

Here I am, 3 years since then, 5 years since my mother died, that I am going through a difficult time again. I don’t want to get into it. I’m not ready to. I have been missing my parents so terribly, hell, I miss my family. These horrible times have shaped me. I have been forged through flame. I forgive myself for my failings during my mother’s illness and the mess of the estate. I am finally ok with my birth story and that I couldn’t be more in love with my stunningly amazing baby boy (who is a freaking preschooler now). I have incredible people in my life who support and love me. Because of these hardships, I am ok, despite things being tough.

So, fuck April. I am so much stronger than you give me credit for.

Spring

I empathize with Spring this year. I don’t want to leave the house yet. I am comfortable under my layers of blankets and sweaters. I feel like I have more thinking and coping to do. That said, I think everyone is so very ready for the bleak cold winter days to be OVER ALREADY.

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Sisters, Winter and Spring.

The last few weeks have been rough here. I feel like the poor plants, trapped in the cold earth, waiting for the weather to change and welcome me back. My Mom’s birthday came and went, and I felt my heart breaking for my son’s lack. He will never know how her eyes sparkled and her laugh cackled when she was truly amused by something. He will never know her stern look over the frame of her glasses, paired by that Marge-esq grumble. He is at an age now where he remembers. He misses people and he asks about them. He tells elaborate stories about his best friend, Gus. He talks about his favourite person in the world, his Auntie Tracy. When my Mum’s birthday came, and he saw me crying while watching a tribute video made by my Dad’s family (estranged to us), he was so worried. He doesn’t understand who these people are that I miss so terribly. I have pictures of them up, I talk about them as much as I can, but he doesn’t know them. There are just some days where that hurts so very much.

Ostara was kind of quiet for us this year. We talked a bit about it, I made a crustless quiche (my Mom’s recipe), and some bunny buns. I gave everyone some mini-eggs and that was it. At least, that was it until my girlfriend, Sarah, called up and told us that she had some extra tickets to the Live Dinosaur Train show. Such a great time! Liam loved it.

Bunny Buns and Quiche

Bunny Buns and Quiche

Liam and I at Dinosaur Train

Dinosaur Train!

A couple days later, I was overcome by the need to do some spring cleaning, and basically attacked the house. Unfortunately, my health hasn’t been great and I very quickly lost steam. I’m doing a tiny bit each day. My back, neck and knee have been acting up. It’s been 5 years since my accident, and I am seeing now how this has changed my life. Even the most basic things, like sitting on the floor to play with my kid and a ball is hard for me.

Easter is around the corner now. Much like Ostara, I don’t have my steam or excitement for it. We’ve been doing some crafts and talking about it as an extension of Ostara, but I can’t help but think about how it was the last holiday I had with Mom, 5 years ago. I can’t help but deeply miss my sister and wish that I was surrounded by loud, insane, offensive family all over again (My Dad’s kids and my parents. Tracy and I are very alike in that we became very small and quiet at the big family dinners. Of course, we helped each other stay sane during those crazy visits).

20150328_09290120150328_092925(1)On the plus side, all of this reflection has given me the push to finally save my pictures from my old desktop that has been sitting dead for 3 years. Pat managed to get it going long enough for me to back everything up. My goal is to start making family photo books. Gives me the ability to celebrate the family, love and support that I do have.

What are your plans for the holiday weekend?

Review: Ipsy March Glam Bag

It is that time again! I was thrilled to pick up my March bag in my mailbox on Friday, giving me the weekend to try out the products.My March Glam Bag from IpsyThe Bag: I love the bag! It makes me think of the Spring that we keep hoping for. We got a bunch of snow this morning, so having some bright flowers to look at is very welcome

The Loot:

LeeAnni Eco 3 in 1 Revolution Light

I was definitely curious to try this one out. Described as being for normal to oily skin, I was a bit nervous, but I didn’t find it drying at all. This product is supposed to be a Toner, Serum and Moisturizer in one, and honestly, my skin felt amazing after using it. Unfortunately, I did break out the next day. I’m willing to keep using it to see if my skin adjusts though. I think this would be perfect for warmer weather.

Pur~Lisse Gentle Soymilk Cleanser and Makeup Remover

Another face product I was excited to try. I have been having a hard time finding a cleanser that is gentle enough on my skin to keep my eczema at bay without being too greasy (booo pimples), while also being strong enough to remove the toughest of makeup. Sounds impossible, right? Well, pretty much. This stuff puts in a good effort though. My skin feels great after using it, but, like I said above, I did break out the next day, but that could have been the 3 in 1. Who knows.

Crown Brush Infinity Shadow/Crease Duet Brush

I love getting brushes. This one, especially, seeing as how it was 2 in 1! I found the main shadow brush side a little more stiff than I’m used to. This was awesome for the crease side, but it made general application a bit tricky. I could see using this for patting down glittery shadows, so I’ll have to give that a shot and see if it works a bit better.

Pixi by Petra Mesmerizing Mineral Duo

The consistency of these shadows is great. It’s saturated and slightly creamy. It felt great going on. The lighter colour is lovely, but neither one is quite right for me. I was hoping for a brighter apricot or peach. These were just slightly too mauve and pink. I will still use them, but they aren’t the best, you know? Also, the size that we received in the bag was quite small, which is a little disappointing.

NYX Cosmetics Butter Lipstick in Little Susie

I have heard so many good things about these butter lipsticks by Nyx. I was a little unsure about the colour, as I tend not to go with brights. This colour is a really lovely saturated pink, and I ended up really loving it. It is truly a perfect spring and summer shade. I lovely how creamy it feels, and how it didn’t dry out my lips at all. I will say that as it wore, I ended up with those lip liner lines, so I had to be careful to reapply frequently.

ipsymarch2So, definitely a good bag. Better than last month for me for sure. What did you get this month?

ipsymarch3Used in this month’s look:

  • LeeAnni Eco 3 in 1 Revolution Light
  • ELF foundation in 01
  • Makeup Forever Highlighting Concealer
  • Benefit Boi-ing Concealer
  • Makeup Forever HD Microfinish Powder
  • ELF Brow set in Medium on brows and for contouring
  • NARS blush in Orgasm
  • Pixi by Petra eyeshadow in Apricot Glow
  • Too Faced Better than Sex mascara
  • Nyx Butter Lipstick in Little Susie